This post is for those who believe in
healing and that God does heal today, but not expecting to be healed/aren’t
healed, yet. My testimony starts in
2006, as an atheist, I was undergoing two symptoms which I ignored; being
extremely tired and a complete lack of appetite. In 2008 I moved to Virginia, this is when
physically things started to get bad. My symptoms were: Extreme back pain,
problems with weakness in my legs and arms. The symptoms continued to progress as I went
from a cane, to a walker to the wheelchair in 2010. In 2011, I was diagnosed with a provisional
diagnosis of ALS. The diagnosis was
later changed to an unknown neurological disorder, by a different neurologist. My symptoms spiraled downhill quickly, by
July 4th 2012, my symptoms effected my entire body a massive 24/7
headache, difficulty swallowing, slurred speech, couldn’t eat my stomach was
completely paralyzed, lungs were weak, severe emphysema, severe back problems,
fingers withered into a fist, unable to lift my arms, legs, bowels, bladder all
completely paralyzed. I had home health
care: a nurse, speech and swallowing therapist and a physical therapist. It had been six months since I had eaten a
solid meal. July 4th 2012 is
when Our Gracious Lord and Savior healed me, at around 2:00 pm.
That is my
testimony, but through my healing Jesus has showed me a number of things I want
to share. They are about faith, Grace
and expectation.
My spiritual
condition December 23rd 2010, I accepted Christ Jesus as my Lord and
Savior. I was baptized in the wheelchair
April 23, 2011 and married to my wife on March 12, 2011. Now, I had not read the Bible as an adult, so
my mind wasn’t renewed, but I had faith that Jesus would heal me. So much faith that when in April 2011, the
doctor gave me the diagnoses of ALS; I told her that Jesus would heal me, and
the two social workers (that were telling my wife I needed to be in a nursing
home) and two nurses. I one hundred
percent believed what I said; Jesus stated that in Matthew 17:20 “If ye have
faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain Remove hence
to yonder place and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you.”
This was in direct reference to healing. My point here is that it only takes an
extremely small amount of faith to be healed and I had it! It takes more faith to believe in salvation
than it does for healing……….why? Because the manifestation of salvation doesn’t
happen until a bodily death! Healing (in
most cases happens while we are alive and we see it’s physical
manifestation). Jesus was actually
saying look guys, it doesn’t take that much faith, you’ve already got it! There are millions of people that have had
the faith to be healed, yet aren’t. We
all know someone that died, that had enough faith to be healed and I could have
easily been one of them. Yet, in spite
of Jesus statement that it takes a small amount of faith, we continually point
at that person and think that they lack faith, wrong, wrong, wrong and in most
cases wrong! In fact, while I was in the
wheelchair, the pastor of my church stated that when someone doesn’t get
healed: it’s their lack of faith………this was about a week before my
healing! People that haven’t accepted
Jesus, have enough faith to be healed, I’ve seen it! So if someone states I believe God
heals, they have enough faith, so quit
trying to get something you’ve already got!! Can we build upon our faith; yes
it is a process and with each step we do progress towards more faith, but faith
as far as healing is concerned most of us have it. So take my word on it, I had the faith to be
healed, but wasn’t for a year and a half. In all honesty, the morning of my
healing, I can honestly say I didn’t have the faith, yet I was healed. Two weeks earlier I had tried to commit
suicide by running my wheelchair into traffic.
So can I state that it was my “great faith” that got me healed,
absolutely not. I still believed God
could heal me, but had lost the belief that He would.
GOD’s Grace
is enough. When it comes to salvation, what do we have to do to earn it? We can do nothing to earn salvation, except
confess with our mouth that Jesus is our Lord and Savior and took the
punishment for our sins and believe it in our heart. That’s it, salvation is a free gift that
Jesus earned for us. How many of us,
would state that in order to be saved, we have to recite John 3:16 everyday,
ten times a day until we feel we’re saved?
Listen to a salvation cd everyday for ten years, until we earn our
salvation? Do we earn salvation?
No!!! Yet, that is exactly what we do
with healing. Healing is the same as salvation
it is a Gift, we can do absolutely nothing to earn it. When do we receive Salvation, when we confess
with our mouths! Does it matter that yesterday; I was cussing like a sailor?
No, because when I repent of my sins and confess with my mouth and believe in
my heart; I receive.
God is so
merciful that when conditions are met, we receive forgiveness and
salvation. Healing isn’t based on our actions;
the condition for healing isn’t based upon what I did two minutes ago. News flash, when I was healed my mind wasn’t
renewed, I wasn’t thinking like a Saint.
I was thinking like a sinner, with a very evil mind. I was still listening to satanic music,
watching movies, which magnified the devil.
From an exterior viewpoint I wasn’t actively doing sin, because I was
paralyzed, but my thoughts were anything but pure. My point is this; God’s Grace to us is
Jesus. Just as salvation isn’t based on
our action, neither is healing. No
matter the condition of our soul, Jesus will heal; it’s the same process; confess,
believe and accept. Ok, so at the time I
confessed to the doctor and others that Jesus would heal me, I believed it, why
didn’t I receive it, at that moment? 1
Corinthians 1:29 that no flesh should glory in his presence.
Galatians 5:4
Authorized
(King James) Version (AKJV)
4 Christ is
become of no effect unto you, whosoever of you are justified by the law; ye are
fallen from grace.
Here’s what happened when I confessed healing,
it was with a mindset, that my faith was the reason I would be healed! In other
words I could have stated it was my faith that healed me. It’s Christ that
heals, not the fleshy mind. I would have taken the Glory away from Christ, and
given it to my body/mind!
The law is based upon our actions, not on
Christ. So unwittingly I based my healing on my action, so God’s Grace/Favor
(Jesus action) was made inactive. The
same way as if I recited healing scripture, thinking in doing that action, my
healing would manifest!
In contrast, if I recite healing scripture to
increase my expectation of healing, then it becomes effective and is no longer
based on my action! This leads me to the final key point. Expectation! Hope is
confident expectation. If my hope is in the Lord for healing, then I am
confidently expecting my healing to manifest.
No longer is it anything I do, but it is all Jesus! My faith activates my confident expectation,
and then through Holy Spirit my healing manifests physically! So here is what happened in my healing. I was
sitting in my living room, I was feeling sorry for myself. Then the thought (Holy Spirit) entered my mind
that Jesus went through so much more than I was going through. I had a vision
of Christ’s scourging and crucifixion (it was as if I had been there). After a
year of not seeking healing anymore, suddenly my confident expectation
increased (this was all a matter of seconds).
I started saying Jesus loves me (3x) Back Pain be gone (3x) In Jesus
Name (3) I then moved at the waist, it took me a second to realize the pain was
gone! So I had confessed, believed/expected, and received. Now all unbelief was
gone and full of only one thing confident expectation, that Jesus would heal
me! No doubt, no second guessing only expectation. I just did the same thing with my fingers,
they moved! Then unwittingly I wheeled
my way to the entrance of the bedroom, showed my wife (confessing healing), told
her Jesus willing I would be back this time walking (expectation). This time it was just the declaring legs move
in Jesus Name they moved, then gratitude Thank You Jesus, which I had been
doing this whole time as well. Then it
was; Jesus don’t let me fall and I stood up and walked. As for the rest of my symptoms they just
started disappearing, my arms starting moving, then that evening when a friend
said can you eat, as soon as she said that I got hungry for the first time in
six years! Confess (speak it), expect it
(believe), movement (receive).
It all works together and really happens without
conscious thought, it isn’t ok step one confess it, step two do this nooooo. It
is if I am confidently expecting it, I speak it aloud, then I’m declaring it,
the end result is doing something I couldn’t do before, because I’m expecting
Jesus to heal.
It isn’t a formula, it’s Jesus! Everyone arrives
to confident expectation, in a different manner. The truth is this when you expect Jesus to
heal He does! As I’m speaking now your expectation is increasing so thank
Jesus, expect and move/recognize your healing and then Praise Him more!!
Seek an intimate relationship with Jesus, a relationship
increases, both Faith and Hope. Jesus’
Love for us is key and we know His Love through intimacy and then we Love Him
back more. With an intimate relationship, we know He wants to heal us.
